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Mine is perhaps a more sensitive soul than I care to let on, and my skin thinner than it should be…

So of course, I’m drawn to that form of creative expression called “writing,” where people aren’t afraid to tell me what they think of my words, and thus me.

I grew up with rejection after rejection, whether via my parents’ divorce, or bullying at school… Thus I don’t handle rejection well:

So of course, my soul is drawn to writing, where rejection can be a daily reality.

I’m often wracked with self-doubt, wondering if what I say, or write, even matters… (Though I not-so-secretly crave the affirmation of “real” writers).

Yet I continue to write, pressing through the “resistance”–the doubt, the fears, the pain that seek to keep fingers from keyboard–because like Eric Liddell running, I feel God’s pleasure when writing.

I’ve had both successes, and setbacks, on this road called “writing.”

But God help me, I can do no other: I can’t not write!

Sure, I have a job that pays the bills–which I’m thankful for–but it doesn’t feed my soul. The most alive I feel is when I get lost inside the words, and time stands still.

I am a writer. I can do no other.

Are You A Writer?

'depression' photo (c) 2008, Rupert Ganzer - license:

So. I’ve mentioned that I have a piece in a book called Not Alone: Stories of Living with Depression. Yeah, it surprises me, too. Thing is, if you met me, you’d probably think “he seems like a pretty happy guy.”

The truth is: I get by.

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In case you didn’t know, I’m contributing author in the Not Alone book, which was edited by the incomparable Alise Wright, and published by Civitas Press.

I’ve said before that I’m proud to have contributed, and humbled to included in such a great group of writers.

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'Love Letters | Schipul Love Fest 2011 ' photo (c) 2000, Schipulites - license:

Dear Lisa,

When we married nearly twenty-one years ago, little did we know…

The twists and turns that life would take to bring us to this place: the loss of a job just three months into our marriage, working two, and three, jobs to get by.
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#Prayer Request: Update

randomlychad  —  September 26, 2011 — 8 Comments
'Clavicles hurt when they break.' photo (c) 2011, Samantha McNamara - license:

For those that have been following my blog in the last week or so, it has been generally overtaken by meditations on the place of pain in our lives, me questioning my worth, and more specifically regarding a trial my my wife, Lisa, is going through.

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