In a perfect world, I would know that I’m loved perfectly. As it is, this is something I struggle to receive–that I am loved wholly, completely, everlastingly–in a word, perfectly. Yes, “Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so…”
In my mind, I know this is so, but something happens on the way to my heart. Wires are crossed, circuits shorted. I could posit reasons–cite formative experiences–but the bottom line is: I struggle with being loved by God.
How about you? Is this settled in your heart–that God loves you wholly apart from what you’re done, that His love is based solely in His nature, and not on any earthly merit you may, or may not, possess?
Think about the difference this would make in our everyday lives if we could accept this on faith. I don’t know about you, but I would be freed to act out of this love, and not from fear. I would be freed from expectations, of trying to be liked, from giving love to get ___.
Jesus indeed said “It’s more blessed to give, than to receive.” Yet how do we–how do I–give what we do not have?
How do I let the love in?
Jesus, why am I afraid? You set the example by risking it all, taking a gamble on the whole human race… yet, despite Romans 5:8 (“God shows His love for us in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us”), I want to protect myself, guard my heart. Yet you tell me that “he who seeks to save his life, shall lose it.” “O, wretched man am I!”
“Lord, I believe–help thou my unbelief!” Help this truth travel from my head to my heart. Help me to let go, and open that door that you are so patiently knocking upon (Rev. 3:20).
How about you? How do you live out God’s love in an imperfect world?