Guest Posting at Cultural Savage Today

Folks, I’ve got a post up on Aaron Smith’s blog today, entitled Church, Grow Up. It’s challenging, raw, and a little angry. Head on over there to read it. While you’re there, check out what Aaron has to say. He’s a great writer.

Falls In A Pool

You’ve perhaps heard of Stands With a Fist, or Dances With Wolves? Characters played by Mary McDonell, and Kevin Costner, respectively.

Well, my Indian name is Falls In a Pool.

Truthfully, I didn’t so much fall as I dove, but I like the way “Falls In a Pool” just tickles my ears. Say it with me: “Falls In a Pool.”

I guess I must have harbored some latent anger against that poor pool, because it is the first time I’ve so viciously, savagely attacked…

The bottom of one…

With my face.

You’ll be happy to know that the pool is no worse for the wear, but I look like:


I’m fairly certain the pool hasn’t had either a lingering headache, or recurrent bloody noses, since the incident.

I’m just glad it isn’t pressing charges.

(For the record, I closed my eyes underwater).

Have you ever done anything stupid in a pool?

My Anger is a Goldfish

Folks, in our ongoing series on anger I’m privileged to bring you a post today from Shawn Smucker. In his own words:

Shawn SmuckerShawn is the author of Building a Life Out of Words, the story of how he lost his business, his house and his community, then found happiness making a living as a writer. He lives deep in the woods of southern Lancaster County, PA, with his wife and four children. You can find him on Facebook and Twitter.


My Anger is a Goldfish

My anger is like seeing an old friend from high school at one of the harvest fairs we have here in the fall, a friend with whom I had many good times doing things that are now embarrassing to recollect. When I first see that old friend, I smile and think about saying hello. But then I remember everything we did and I realize it would be awkward. We terrorized the community back in our day, stole road signs and drove like maniacs.

Things are different now. I am different.

Not knowing how to deal with such a friend, I duck my head and walk around to the back side of the tent where people are throwing ping-pong balls at fish bowls. Children walk by holding goldfishes-in-water by the crinkled necks of clear plastic bags, and I wonder how many hours or at most days those fish have left. And my old friend wanders by, chatting with someone I do not know, and I sigh.

So it is with my anger, this old friend who I cannot communicate with. This old friend who startles me with his sudden appearance. This old friend who causes me to hide in obscure alleyways and watch the random bouncing of ping-pong balls as they dance over the heads of goldfish praying, “Not me!”

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According to Annie Dillard, Rabbi Isaac Luria “repudiated both anger and sorrow, for to him anger, especially, was the proximate source of all evil.” This is a foreign thought to us today, when we are encouraged to embrace our feelings.

Feelings cannot be judged as good or bad, we are told by everyone. Feelings simply are.

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When I was a boy, I was taught in no uncertain terms that anger was bad. In the Amish culture, that murky, beautiful people from whom my grandparents emerged not unscathed, stoicism and emotional control are valued above all else. I have seen many Amish men venture towards anger, but they veer away from it by laughing forcefully, or scoffing. Ridiculing something is preferable to being angry with it.

Then I read somewhere that anger is simply the result of a blocked goal. I want something. I am blocked from attaining it. I am angry.

And so when I feel that dragon’s egg beginning to tremble, when I feel anger beginning to hatch, I search for what it is that I am being held from.

The constant activity of the children, when they are supposed to be in bed, is keeping me from a tranquil evening.

The person driving the car that cut me off is keeping me from feeling that I am an autonomous human being that owns the roads.

The person on the internet that disagrees with me is keeping me from feeling safe and secure in the little castle of beliefs that I have constructed, that help me make sense of an upside-down world.

But instead of addressing my old friend Anger, I scurry off to the side and simply wait for him to pass me by. I prefer avoidance, for now.

Then I realize that my anger is not my old friend from high school. My anger is a goldfish, because I believe that my anger can be submerged in the water of some other emotion and carried away, so long as I cling to the crinkled neck of the clear plastic bag that holds it.

For some reason, though, this particular goldfish never seems to die.

Saguaros Stand

'Saguaro with sunset' photo (c) 2009, kanu101 - license:

Saguaros stand lonely sentinel, clinging to life in arid soil. Looking like nothing so much as great green fingers and arms upraised, pointing to an empty sky. There is a distance between them, which can’t be crossed.

Like the distance between human hearts. How well can we know another? How well are we known? When we all stand, looking to the sky, bearing a question which is ours alone.

Like the cactuses, do we stand alone under the fiery gaze of a cruel, uncaring sun? Are we destined to forever rise in such close proximity to the community we need, only to find we are always and forever alone? That the spark can’t bridge the gap?

It is a Sisyphean task.

This continually reaching out, and it not being quite enough.

Yet I stretch my arms to the sky–for Who Else has the words of life? Like the cactus, I choose to stand. Though the hot sun beats down, and the dark night closes in.

I choose to believe…






Even when life is hardest, I will deny the darkness, and beat back the night. Even though it feels like it, one thing we never are:

We are never alone.

Have you ever felt alone?

The Nursing Mother’s Room

Just so you know: this post is coming to you entirely devoid of pictures. If you came here hoping for images of gratuitous nursing, what’s wrong with you?

This isn’t that kind of blog. (If that kind of blog exists, don’t tell me. I don’t want to know). Move along elsewhere.

'WE RENT BREAST PUMPS #breast #pump #milk #medical #equipment #rent #rental #dontbuy #usedisbetterthannew #sign #posted #glass #reflection #iphoneonly #instayum' photo (c) 2013, Slipp D. Thompson - license:

(This is not a service our church offers).


The kids spent the the night at their grandparent’s house, so Lisa and I did that thing that adults do when their kids aren’t around:

We slept in.

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