I Believe In You, But Not In Me

randomlychad  —  November 21, 2013 — 13 Comments

I believe in you–have faith you will succeed, will carry through. I believe God can, will, and does bless you.

But I have trouble believing for me.

I have trouble believing in me. I know you can do it; I just don’t know that I can. If you have a need, I can pray prayers that will bring the glory down. But for myself? For me, my faith is a frail thing. It’s small–smaller than a grain of mustard seed.

I don’t know how to pray for myself anyhow, relying upon recorded prayers. Trusting that God will hear my tongue-tied heart. I don’t know what to ask for.

Oh, I believe you’re worthy, my friend.

But maybe I know my own dark heart too well to even dare to dream that God will bless me? I’m not worthy…

Lord, I believe; help Thou my unbelief.

Give me the faith to believe for me.

Have you ever been there, friend?

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  • Been there, done that, still go there at times. My wife also has had issues in that area. We think we’re so special at being unspecial.

    • Good point, Joe! That’s the season I find myself in--feeling unspecial. Guess it’s not unique.

      • Nope, that’s not special, either. 🙂

  • I’ve been there, but I’ve become rather “unfiltered” with God…much more so than I am with people. He can take it, I won’t surprise Him by anything I say…

    Your loving Father has got you covered!

    In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. -Romans 8

    • Amen! Thanks, JT!

      It’s just easier to believe that for you, than it is for me. Make sense? Where others are concerned, I’ve no trouble believing. But for me? It’s working it all out with fear and trembling.

  • It’s a struggle for most of us, my friend. The other polar opposite is to believe we are the uber-blessed people of God. You know, like your favorite preacher the Most Blessed Olsteen. The Eldredge book I am reading talks a lot about this. That we are built for spectacular purpose. It is tough to believe, but in my gut, in the deep recesses of my heart, I know it’s true. Otherwise, what are we even doing here, right?

  • It’s a struggle for most of us, my friend. The other polar opposite is to believe we are the uber-blessed people of God. You know, like your favorite preacher the Most Blessed Olsteen. The Eldredge book I am reading talks a lot about this. That we are built for spectacular purpose. It is tough to believe, but in my gut, in the deep recesses of my heart, I know it’s true. Otherwise, what are we even doing here, right?

    • Dude. That’s what I’m trying to figure out. What am I here for?

      • Give me a cal if you want to talk Chad. Or maybe we can grab lunch. I think my lunch plans for tomorrow have cancelled

        • Will do, man. I’m around downtown tomorrow.

  • I’m with you. That inner voice doesn’t want you to believe in yourself.

    • It sure doesn’t, does it, Larry? The resistance is a (not a nice word).