Self-Deprecation Gets You Nowhere/Being Passive-Aggressive With God

randomlychad  —  July 11, 2011 — 5 Comments

Over the weekend, I gave my twelve year-old son some fatherly advice about self-deprecation; I told him to stop.

This is advice I need to heed myself. I told him that if he was constantly putting himself down, others would pick up on that vibe, and follow suit.

Well guess what I did this morning?

Here’s a hint from my Twitter feed:

Yep, there it is in black, white, and bondi blue: me being a douche to myself.

My wife has accused me of much frumpery lately–and she’s right: I’ve been a frump.

And being an introvert, this is altogether too easy to do, this wilting inward like a sun-scorched flower. Life just feels like too much right now.

There are reasons for this, but generally when my sleep issues (apnea) are worse, I’m a negative nelly, and morose. I find it harder and harder to be positive. The sunny side just isn’t.

(I get mad at God–like it’s His fault I don’t sleep at night. “That’s fine,” I tell Him. “You wanna spend time with me? I’ll give you the 15-20 minutes of my morning commute, and a couple chapters during lunch. The rest is mine until You start blessing me with decent rest at night.”

Yes, I really am that immature and passive-aggressive with God).

Of course my whole family picks up on this vibe. And who wants to be around that?

Heck, sometimes I don’t even wanna be me!

But God didn’t leave that one up to me, now did He?

Thankfully, I’ve got a wonderful wife in MissLisaMJ–a woman who loves me enough to give me a swift kick when I need it! Two great kids, who love me more than life. And some great online friends who don’t let me get away with my self-douchery:

“No more talking like that.” Thanks, Mrs. Lunardo, I’ll take that to heart!

What do you to break out of your funks? Who do you have in your life that you let speak into it?

PS: If you’re not following any of the people mentioned in the post above, you totally need to, ok? to recap, there’s @misslisamj, @sharideth, @tylertarver, & @tamaraoutloud




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  • Great thoughts, Chad!

    • Thanks, Larry! Been meaning to head back your way on teh intarwebs & check things out.

  • My bff and I have made a promise that whenever we see the other talking trash about ourselves, we must virtually smack one another. We both have a tendency (especially with one another) to down-play our talents and we've decided that it's just silly and we're not going to allow each other to do it.

    I think having a realistic view of yourself is okay and good. When it comes to music, I need to work harder on fundamentals like practicing scales and theory, but I'm a pretty solid pianist for the most part. When I say that I suck, that's not true and it's like me telling people who say that I'm good that they're liars. Plus, I know it hurts me to hear friends speak negatively about themselves, so why is it different for me?

    Good words, my friend!

  • Great post, Chad, and it really struck a chord with me as I'm often too far into self-deprecation territory myself. I think I mix it up with being humble and modest sometimes. :-p Thankfully my husband is a positive extrovert who patiently reminds me to not be so hard on myself. 🙂